encompassing fever

i can barely look him in the eyes
as i raise my head
wishing that I had longer hair
to help obscure my face
to make me look demure
to overcome the sinking
sensation that i am failing
at being a woman as he places
his hand on the nape of my neck
and tilts me back until i
can see him clearly
good girl
he whispers as he places
his other hand over my eyes
so i can’t see him
as he bends down to kiss me
slow softly gently as if
he’ll never stop
and i am wondering
when the pain will begin
his fingers over my eyes open
just enough for me to see
the curve of his ear through the crack of them
and i bite his bottom lip gentle enough
not to draw blood hard
enough to come back
and the gasp that comes with it
is delightful
slowly i run my hands up
the edges of his sides under
the soft fabric of his shirt and across
his nipples once twice three times
to make him gasp pull my hair
and lean into the confines of this kiss
as if i am the only thing in this world
that is capable to holding him up
i love you i mutter as the words stumble
off my lips in the free moments i have
to breathe his fingers digging into my hips
the pull of my jeans an anchor
that locks me to him as i slide my legs between his
and push him backwards onto the bed
before he can react
fast enough my legs around his hips
my crotch pressing down on his as i try
to steady my weight while
my fingers are in his hair as he pulls at me
scratches his way down my back
kisses my lips my neck in an all encompassing fever
our attempt to make
this moment last forever